oh man

I look at the june 17th date on my last post and think where has the time gone? I know part of it has been my little snugglebug's decision to become very mobil and therefore leaving me with much less time to even breathe much less do a load of laundry or unload the dishwasher, much less organize things that desperately need it, much less upload pictures and write a blog, much less......well I guess you get the idea.

Things around here are slowly getting better, but it is a VERY slow process. I'm trying really hard to not let the chaotic state of my house (still not totally unpacked) leave me feeling chaotic all the time. It's not always easy. I really do need order, not necessarily perfect cleanliness, but order, like a place for everything. But that takes some major organization and some money to go out and buy the stuff you need to put things in. And until we get done paying for our house that we sold almost two years ago now, that won't be happening like I would like. It will still be awhile! A really good friend said it well the other day. She said, "it seems like your life is just now on the upswing." Exactly. It's far better than it was before we sold our house and were still living at my mom's!!! But sometimes I feel like people kinda thought well once they sell their house and get their own house things will be all better, at least I did. And things probably could have been if we hadn't lost so much money on our house in georgia. And I will say that I am really happy that we bought the house we did for the price we did because it does leave us with some money to make it feel like ours and decorate it, etc........it's just that all the major stuff really does have to wait until we are done paying for the other house so until then that whole trial that we walked through isn't totally over......it's better.....just not really over.

On a much more positive note, the Lord has really used so many things through this trial to teach me so much about myself and about Him and I can easily say that I love Him so much and much more than I knew how to before. Which I am very grateful for! Although I will be trying will all my might to never walk back into that mind set that I need reminding who He is! Not what I'm looking for! I hope to share some of the things He is teaching me here. They're pretty good!

Our summer was fun but very tiring. I think I just can't wear lovebug out like school can and with this being his last year of preschool I was so ready for preschool to start this year. I literally felt like I was losing my mind trying to use up his energy. If I didn't do a good enough job then he just couldn't stay out of trouble which was also very exhausting, in a totally different way.

So now that lovebug has so much more organized activity in his life and snugglebug has more alone time with me and I have a little more time to finish a project and I'm done nursing so I can leave them for more than 4 hours at a time (hear hallelujah chorus break out) I can at least envision time to get something that feels like a step in the right direction actually done!!!!

So hopefully house project pictures will be coming soon along with some really great lessons that I hope will bless you or challenge you, or both!